20 Years Old, and Loved.

I am awake right now. Really awake. I haven't really felt like this in a while, and I wanna write down some thoughts. So, here they are. I cant carry them any longer.

The first is ceramics.  I have always known that I love art, but this class has seriously transformed my love. Is it okay to say that I am in love with clay? Because I am. There is something about throwing clay on the wheel that makes you just fall in love. If you dont know what I am talking about then you are missing out. Seriously. Take a ceramics class and it will change your life.  It makes you so aware of the patience and intricacy that art is. The small details that get lost when you look at a piece of pottery, but after making it, you just gain this appreciation for it. When you throw a pot you have to be so conscious  of what youre doing, one slip of the slightest touch and you can ruin it. I have learned to be so patient. I spent literally 3 weeks making a coil pot, glazing it, and perfecting it basically, only to find that I had put on a layer of slip too thick. During the firing process it was ruined. 3 weeks and I have an unfinished pot to show for it. A love of trial and error and patience.

My final project for my digital class is to create something about a theme. Basically, we can do whatever we want. I am choosing to make a "documentary" so to speak about nature. Nature and what it means to me. What it means to other people, and what it means to really notice nature. I am kind of a freak when I see something beautiful, instead of just passing by it and remarking about it like a normal person,  I get pretty excited. The sky for instance. Have you ever really looked at the sky? Not just gazed up at it and squinted for a minute at the dots slowing forming in your eyes, but really looked at it. If there is one thing I do love about Fredericksburg it is the sky. It never ceases to amaze me. And I mean that. There is so much depth to the sky that I am mesmerized by. The colors. The clouds. I get lost sometimes. Seriously? Look at this picture.

Another thing has been guitar. I sucked at it for a really long time. And I am in no means any good, but I have gotten better. I like just strumming it and making meaningless patterns. My friend Becca and I even wrote a song. Its actually really great. Look for it on youtube soon! ha. But seriously. Music is something that really speaks to the soul. Cheesy, but true. Its just so good. Certain songs have the power to make you cry, make you laugh, make you dance. It captures people. And it captures me. So much that I have started to actually sing in front of people/play what little of guitar skills I have.  If you know me, that is saying alot. Enjoy!

Lastly, is Love. I know I blog about it all the time. But I have just really felt loved lately. My friends are the greatest, and I just love love sometimes. Well, all the time. But especially now. In college, where I am finding the true love from friends, and the relationships that I want to give and receive. They are just so important. I am realizing just how quickly time flies by, and sitting in my dorm room, as a sophomore in college, no longer a teen ager, I cant help but think just how lucky I am to be experiencing this love at such a young age. 

20 Years old, and loved.