Life.

Is it possible to be thinking about nothing and then everything all in the same moment?

I have been doing a lot of thinking. Sometimes about nothing, other times about everything, but tonight, its different. It is like my mind is completely at ease with the world, and it is awesome. For the first time in a while, I am not thinking about anything. Because nothing is in my control. I have fully invested in this trust, this trust that God has promised me through love, and his love only.

Its a tuesday night, or actually a wednesday morning, 1 am. I am sitting on the lawn outside my dorm. Tim and Carl are doing homework, and I am just sitting, well now I am blogging. But it is crazy to me to think about my life thus far, and then to realize that tomorrow it starts fresh. I have my whole life ahead of me, and it starts right now, every second counts.

I was joking earlier when I asked myself, what am I doing with my life? But thats the beauty of it. I have no idea what i am doing with my life. I am just living. Carl put it perfectly when he said that we should stop thinking about the future and just live every day. We hear this all the time, live every day to the fullest, but seriously. When was the last time you really lived?

I like that Im a dreamer, it gets me excited for the future. I cant just be a dreamer though, because life is so much more than just dreaming.

Go outside, sit in chair and just think. Think about everything. Think about nothing. Dream dreams, but most importantly, live.